When it’s empty no one can judge. We sit behind our doors and watch through the windows. Someone splashes in the puddles of felicity. We sit on porch swings and sing lullabies to the fireflies. Glittering the night. It is only here where we reach a sanguine reality.
You watch me. With those eyes. Your eyes peer through. You see inside. Or maybe behind. On the other side. Where people melt and hide. In longing for a lover.
Strips my vision. Filling it with ego. Telling me in a whisper. I am just a body. Of which my soul inhabits. I am in a race. You may never win. I rest at the finish line. Awaiting a battle.
When sunlight hit, warmth filled the air
and in each breath, I would release my anger
For my heartbeat quickened and my hands shook
Yet I knew better than to grab you or yell
If you fall in love with her golden locks
and my golden eyes
Never forget what lies inside
As if I do not remember how in the womb you held me.
Because your thoughts are engraved in my mind
And I will never forget your voice
Or your eyes
Or your smile
I will never forget your temper
Even when you are too frail
and gentle
To pronounce words in a disturbing manner
And I will never forget your conversation
For you have filled my head with imagination,
With pain and wisdom
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I have no idea what I am meant to do
With all this love
And compassion
It bloomed and it died
Turned into embers
Over and over again
Now all I am is broken
The passion persists
and love is all I miss
Cold skin cannot fathom warmth
and burning skin does not remember chilly days
I sit by the fire
Imagining sun rays tickling my skin
I crave hot breath on my fingers
Something in my soul
is hungry and jaded
I cannot say I know
what I need
I hope I am the solution
Tell me those words
So I will be able to exist
In a fairytale reality
and ignore my darkness
When all my walls are crumbling and distant,
I reach for the clouds and kiss
nature goodnight.
I tell myself I am strong.
But words have no power
over me.