In My Feelings Pt.2

There’s more darkness here than light All like flashlights shining, so uneven So I write this by my lamp and it hurts the most to say I’m unable to know what I’m feeling

In My Feelings Pt.1

I know the feeling of incredible loneliness and the overwhelming noise of company I love them both So I can’t choose


It’s as if though the second I feel good, all of it becomes a devastating blur – and I was never diagnosed or said to have a solid reason but I went for the weight that felt to lift off my shoulders each time I left her door  


I had taken too much time for them But I needed more and as I searched through the aisles I realized I don’t need any of this To feel happiness It will only temporary fill my holes


I am in awe of you I never knew you until today but when I met you I remembered you from a dream I’ve heard many stories about you from my broken homes are you really here? can I really trust ? what do you look like?  


You are valid You are more valid then you have ever imagined Your words and emotions can be held as important in my hands and hang in the air so I can Hear you I see you I love you


It comes in many different forms It can strike anyone It’s not a sickness It’s  a state of mind that Twists And melts Away all happiness All security All self-love It’s not something that can be measured by a thermometer And you can never see Or feel what I’m feeling through an x-ray machine But…


I have an unopened truth for you I don’t know exactly why, But you could tell me a million times how beautiful i am and i never would believe you So i appreciate the love, but maybe just most people aren’t supposed to feel beautiful I know it’s not necessary To always  feel that way…

Hidden Jem

You are a million things All bound into one That’s the beauty in you The way you know exactly how to wear Your flaws and strengths Across your body Like scars and tattoos The way you know exactly Who you are You’re a story Waiting to be told Just as soon as you get out…


I’m too tired I chant I look I think I feel that I’m so tired I’m only A child How do I already feel tired? It hurts How do I never get enough sleep?

Good Days

My good days come and go in waves The bad ones Are tsunamis I feel the wind The breeze of feelings The temporary Dealing I take my memories And place them in my pocket I Try not to forget Even the bad ones Because that’s what Really grew me

To Belong

A family of four Once five Sits in silence All loud inside   She asks to leave And as she runs up the stairs She feels them All fade away   As she cries in bed   She remembers every moment She has felt like this.   Like she just wants to run away but…