I must build a home in my heart With windows for sunlight Build a home, Where it hurts While building myself a home, I realize there are diamonds in my heart There is beauty and ability More stability than I have ever seen Everything is up to me

I find myself here too often It is a place Living in my heart Creeping in to every thought

I am a fragile graceful being Strength holds my hand Love pours from my lips My eyes see beauty everywhere they look

I look into your eyes, and my heart jumps from my chest and into your palms and your eyes and your smile they hold medicine to my pain That I will not find anywhere else Except for in my own heart

I am reminiscent of our sweetness Forgetful of our flaws Together, we are beautiful

There is thunder downstairs It sounds terrifying. I hope when I have a home of my there is peace. These walls provide a sanctuary for now, Won’t anyone be kind?

I feel fragile as if I may break I missed the sunset today honey shield I place over my swollen body I created a boundary and no one may break it except for my Mother She understands I am changing I am learning I am growing and I feel fragile today

Do you know how many times I vowed I would give you up? that I wouldn’t need your love to feel I was enough? Like an addiction, I relapse. All I am left with Is my burning love for you And each time I know you are nearby, I feel shivers down my spine and…

I will write and write Until my hands fall off And my mouth cannot move anymore to spill words from my tongue

I am hungry for something more.

I share my love  I’ve got so much to give Yet I must leave enough for myself

To those who’ve ever wished that they could feel nothing at all That they could fall against the pavement and no tears would fall That they could see their scrapes and bruises and they wouldn’t have to care To those who’ve ever wished numbness on themselves I understand The pain is too much It becomes…