A radical change
is to be loved
without because.
I want your beauty.
Giving others
the same love you could,
equal to a legacy.
Who allows us to speak with the shadows?
A child chasing a nightmare,
horror is the height of
imagination.
The One deepest within
bears no weight
and yet the weight of everything.
ברוך השם
,הכל כדי לשמור עלינו
לא קושי קטן.
(Everything is to protect us,
not a small challenge.)
A list of what
I could not say
includes
my fear of belonging
to another.
You in me
carrying You.
Even alone
never lonely.
You bring me home.
From heart to hands.
Now I know I am
made of You.
The loneliest Shabbat
I was more than alone,
only the candles would glow for me.
It is as if
the farthest journey
was not from
here to there,
but rather within.
Choice in every smile,
every word.
You are
who you
choose to be.
How long
is the longest arrival?
What does it lead to?
Where is the purpose?
To describe to you
an empty beauty
I must begin with a never ending lake.
Standing in it
is being in the place I was born
but do not come from.
The softer
I become
I am more like
my mother’s mother.
The mystical princess
who follows me in the mirror.
The longest journey
has no destination.
I ask to be chosen
and so I chose.
I look to You
to see beauty.
I near You
to be found.
Wandering forty years
around our destination.
Forty years
it takes to trust.
I ask to receive you.
The farthest from me
is still me.
I who wanted to hug you
was not the one you embraced.