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Month: November 2019

Honey Eyes

Honey Eyes

Your words sweet like honey

Unlike your eyes

Not honey like mine

They were blue.

an ocean,

I fell into you

Now I reminiscence

And ponder how I

Nearly drowned in your abyss

Pretermit

Pretermit

Heartache runs rampant in your eyes

Starring pain in my movie

Release me

As the sun collapses

Specks of fire drip among us

and light your eyes

Loathe

Loathe

I feel ashamed

To admit I still love you

I feel this ecstatic longing in my soul

When I see you

I crave you 

Something of a distraction

Cry as I write

Cry as I write

To seek understanding

As the pen hits the paper

We tell a lie or a truth

But we whisper

It becomes a mumble

Unknown, cascading like starlight

Empathy

Empathy

Do not tell me to be happy

Do not try and wipe my tears

They will sting you too

and you will disappear

Instead why don’t you hold me?

and remind me that you are here

Palace

Palace

The answers lie

Somewhere beneath cushions where I rest

And when my fingers dip into the soft

Honey-like gold

Of my heart,

I spill tears, love and ashes 

Across shiny floors

In the ballroom I dance with my eyes

I manipulate the sense of my neighbors

I once slipped through the windows

And fell two stories

Down to the rose garden

Among my thorns

They stabbed me

And the blood poured so much

I collected my bones and my blood

And I taught myself

To love

I come first

I come first

I lost faith in young love

Now I guard my heart a little better

maybe you saved me from approaching agony

I will not fall easily again

or trust someone undeserving

I know to love myself

Men

Men

you have not looked

over here

since that day

it is pathetic 

how beauty persists

yet attention fades

PTSD

PTSD

I jump from land to sea

Precious hearts,

Blind distress

You say I have an issue

With my head

All the broken pieces

Do not fit

In my body anymore

In Your Dreams

In Your Dreams

Creamy clouds inexistent here

Only shadowy dust of love and longing

for the home we reminisce

You closed doors on me

when you realized

I would never stay

I understand and I apologize

All I ask

is we meet in your dreams

Identity Crisis

Identity Crisis

Eyes sit on the balcony

Watching lights 

and cars and the moon

The eyes wonder

why are they are where they are

and why they are who they are

Unwanted

Unwanted

How unloved I feel

Even with your arms clasped 

around my body

My eyes waited for yours

Across the room

Yet they never approached

I continue waiting for your love

Juxtaposition

Juxtaposition

If only I had been born 

Like the rest of them

Mindlessly wandering

Light enough to soar

If I had been born

Into a seperate time, place, story

Who might have I become?